I took it personal

Only if you give a little empathy and care enough about me, a little just enough, a tiny space in your heart, about me. 12/01/25 it's 3.16am, too early or too late because i haven't sleep since yesterday at 3am, so basically 24 hours awake. and here still crying. i couldn't tell even more. 

thought it was the battle within yourself when actually there's another someone you care more than me. it's hurting when you cannot be honest about who am i and how we've been through almost this whole year. It feels like you're trying to get her trust back, trying to do something so she won't leave you while you will never defend me like that to anyone. 

so sad that you really turn your back on me. 

so it was all nothing and i took it personal, i mean after months. i losing mind about who is responsible for this, who to blame. is it me? it is. i fall to deep that i still hoping it can be mutual, one day it's mutual. no it's not that actually you never wish more than just a friend. i blame my heart for this. honestly i'm still trying to forgive you. It's so hard, know that i'm trying, you know me very well that i always trying. i can't understand this feeling. still working out on this situation, questioning what could have been better of by how am i gonna face this. 

and maybe she's better than me, she is where every single thing worth being fight for. i'm trying to accept the fact that i never once being important to you. i am just nothing more, just enough. if this is the fact, i really wish i could regret all the days i spent with you when actually i always cherish about how happy and how i love being there and hug you.