Sick

     Gaada kesempatan buat istirahat selain sakit. But once fever kaya gini sedihnya adalah ingat mama. Waktu pulang kampung penguburan mama, ade sepupu cerita waktu aku sakit dan masuk rs, mama marahin semua orang di rumah dan jadi emosional bgt. Karna sejujurnya dia khawatir banget tapi gabisa berbuat apa apa karna aku jauh. I miss her so much

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